It’s the Saturday before Easter. You know, it’s the weekend to celebrate grace and forgiveness. Well, let’s see how I’m doing this weekend. Yesterday, I was running around getting last minute details taken care of for the holiday. Yep, you know the ones I’m talking about. We had to get shoes and dresses, candy and a few items for kid’s church too. I still have to get the groceries and candy.
We didn’t make it that far because the alternator in our truck is FRIED. The battery is as dead as it can get. When I saw the battery light come on and the gauge getting lower and lower, I called it a day. LOL! I got to the nearest auto parts store to have them check the alternator and sure enough, it’s useless now. I turned off all of the accessories, rolled the windows down had just enough battery life to get me to my driveway. To tell you how drained it was, I didn’t have enough power to even roll my windows back up.
I had just barely made it. Oh, the frustration! I certainly didn’t need the extra expense coming out of my checking account right now, but the timing of it is so ridiculous! I have too much to do! I don’t have time for this, not that I ever do. Of course, it finally leads me to asking God, “What is the plan here? I got nothing.” Did you notice what happened? I had too much planned in my day, my car died, I got frustrated, I went to God. Sometimes the purpose is in the struggle.
He reminded me ever so gently, in Psalm 46:10, He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Oh yeah. Where is my focus? What is my focus on? Not on Him. Not on the sacrifice He made for me.
Yesterday was Good Friday. It was (symbolically) the day Jesus died on the cross for the world and payed the ultimate price of sin. As a mom, I can’t imagine what his mother was experiencing in that dark moment as she watched her son in such torment. Even knowing how the story ends, my heart hurts for her in that moment.
I can’t help but be overwhelmed by how much God loves us all. I have to stop and think that if He loves me that much, to give His only son as a sacrifice for the sin of the world, then how much He wants me to have a fulfilling life. Not rainbows and butterflies? Not necessarily financially. I’m thinking about grace, peace and contentment, though. Knowing He loves me and knowing that there is nothing that will ever come against me that He can’t handle. Not even my not-so-awesome choices. I’m not saying that if I had planned my day better, I wouldn’t have a dead alternator right now. Not at all. I’m saying that I would have likely had a different response though. Struggles are going to come in the most unlikely times. What am I going to do about it when it happens? More importantly, what am I going to do about it BEFORE it happens?
In all of this, I can’t help but think about grace and forgiveness. Am I carrying unforgiveness and resentments inside of me? Are they stopping me from living out the fulfilling life that He wants me to have? If I am willing to seek Him, and take hold of the forgiveness He has offered to me, then how can I NOT acknowledge that His grace and forgiveness also covers the sin of others too, even when people have hurt me? I have to understand that the blood of Jesus covered the sin of EVERYONE. My resentment holds me back, not anyone else.
Just a little something to ponder …
How are you celebrating His sacrifice, grace, and forgiveness this weekend? What about everyday? Take a moment and ask Him to reveal to you if you are allowing anger or resentment to live inside of you. Ask for forgiveness and pray a blessing over the person (or people) daily until you get freedom. Celebrate grace and forgiveness! Don’t let the sin of someone else stop you from living out the plan God has destined you for. Life is way too short for that.