Have you ever struggled with something that was so difficult that it caused you to stop and wonder if you were going to get through this struggle and still love and trust God? I have. This is a series that I wrote about how my faith in God grew during one of the most difficult storms in my life. This is my infant loss story.
Where is God when it hurts so much?
I have wondered this myself. I can assure you, that through my story, there were times that I felt angry at God, empty, and lifeless. Then, at other times I felt God’s assurance, peace, and faithfulness. He is still there.
I can also assure you that this was not an easy story to write, even 25 years later. I’m in a different place than I was at the time just suffering the brutal agony of loss. It was not an easy transition to decide to trust God despite my grief.
This is the story of hope, grief, and my growing faith through the loss of a child. Yes, I said growing. It’s kind of hard to believe that in such heartache that my faith in God would grow, but it did. This is my truth. My story.
Trusting God in Difficult Times is not easy.
I have told this story so many times in the last 25 years and I know now that God was growing me and my family in a way that I never imagined. I never saw it when we were in the middle of the heartbreak, the middle of grief after the loss of our infant.
If you are going through a struggle right now that feels raw and hopeless, dear friend, I’m going to tell you to hang in there. God is not finished with your story yet. He is not finished with you yet.
Sweet friend, you will get through this struggle.
I love to use the analogy of a storm cloud because when you are in the middle of the biggest storm of your life, even though you can’t see the sun in those moments, it still shines as bright as it ever did behind the clouds.
It’s on the other side of that torrential storm. After the rainstorm passes, a rainbow will appear. Let that rainbow be a reminder that God keeps His promises. God is faithful, even in the pain.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
Faith Through the Loss of a Child
Below, are the posts that sum up 12 pivotal days in my life that changed me and my family FOREVER. While the time period that this story covers is across the span of 25 years, I focused in on the memorable moments across the time period. These are moments of heartbreak, hope, anger, peace, and faith.
I hope it brings you comfort and encouragement to see how God moved in our lives during this most hurtful time and how I allowed God to help me get through this grief.
Since grief story is lengthy, I created this page to compile all 12 posts in one place. It may be helpful to save it to your bookmarks bar and then come back and read it in pieces. If you do that, simply jump straight to the post where you left off. Of course, if you have the time right now, just use the link at the end of each post to take you to the next part.
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